Finally Got What I Wanted

For the past 6 years I have begged Farron to take me to the Fall Ball. Well this year there is this Dental Ball, and well since it's our last year here at Dal and all he gave in. We spend a few days finding the perfect dress, shoes, and even looked at suits. After buying the dress and shoes we did some calculating and figured it would cost around $500 bucks for the night!!! We soon decided this was a complete waste and decided to call it off. I took the dress back but I'm keeping the shoes!
Moral of the story give me what I want and then I won't want it any more.
I'm a bit disappointed, not so much over the ball but over this whole school thing. The last week or so has me unreal for me. I just feel like a totally different person, I have zero energy, find it hard to find the good in anything, and have no ambition for school work at all, I've been staying up late, spending way too much time on here, and letting my mind get the best of me. And to top it all off I am finding this weird germ phase thing. It's really quite concerning. Only 3 and a little months left to go but I seriously want to give up. Sometimes just sitting here thinking about all the crap I have to do and all the crap that's going to come makes me cry. I so want to just give up, go home, and well that's it that's what I want to do. I am so sick of this place, of school, of not being able to have what I want, of not being able to do what I want, and most of all not being able to control any aspect of my life. I feel as though the life fairy has come and taken mine all away. On a postive note I'm going out with the girls this week-end as a destresser so hopefully some good will come of that....