Christmas

Well it's that time again, Christmas is fastly approaching and I am soo excited. Farron and I went out lastnight and they were playing Christmas music in the stores, there were decorations everywhere, and I got the excited Christmas spirit feeling. This Christmas is going to be a lot different from what I am use to. I am far far away from home and for the first time in 24 years I won't be able to see my parents, to see their face when they open their gift from me, I won't be able to wake them up early, and hear my Dad read the Christmas story. I won't be able to eat Mom's Christmas dinner or taste Dad's pumpkin pie. I won't be able to see the nieces and nephews enjoying their new toys. I won't be able to give my parent's hugs, kisses, and thanks for the countless gifts they give me. I won't be able to model my new clothes to see if they meet the 'rents standards. I won't be able to visit with Laurie and his family and steal their Christmas candy. I won't be able to go to Lucy's and see the whole gang as we enjoy the many dishes she prepares, or admire all her Christmas decorations. I won't be able to attend the Christmas Eve service, or open that one special gift on Christmas eve with the Family. I won't be able to do a lot of things, the list goes on and on.

But this year there are a lot of different things I will be able to do. I will be able to spend the whole Christmas Season with Farron. I will be able to wake up Christmas morning with him beside, and for the first time in 7 years we can celebrate Christmas together. I will be able to see Aaron, Tanya, Suki, and Coco. I will be able to decorate our place anyway I want, with Farron's input of course. I can put Christmas lights up outside. I can entertain. I can watch Farron's face as he opens his gifts. I can kiss Farron first thing in the morning. I can buy all the Christmas decorations I need and want. I wan bake cookies, and cakes, and chocolates. I can spend Christmas dinner with Aaron for a change. I can do a lot of things.

This post was originally intended to be one where I would write all the great childhood memories I had of Christmas, but I sort of went off on a tangent. Now back on track.

As a child Christmas was always the greatest time of year for me and I have so many great memories. I remember Nana spending some Christmas eve nights at our house, and spending Christmas day at her house seeing all my cousins. I remember sometimes Nana would decorate her tree with chocolate ornaments and I would undecorate by eating them.

I remember always getting the special doll I asked for from Santa and then going to Aunt Joanne's and she always had another one waiting for me. One year I had to get up through the night to pee, and I remember seeing something on the table (it was dark) and I thought Santa forgot his sack, but it was just one of my stuffies.

I remember going the sunday school christmas concerts and I just loved gettting the treatbags at the end of the night, the chocolates were my favorite part. I remember opening one gift christmas eve as a family.

I use to love Christmas because it meant we got to go visit everyone, all my aunts and uncles and friends. It was so much fun and we got to play with all the new toys everyone got. I remember playing pictionary at Katrins, Crystal, and Christy's and Laurie some how got a bloody nose!?!

I loved waking up early and seeing that Santa had left my socking full of gifts, and a gift under my special tree in my room that I was allowed to open before everyone else got up. I loved listening to the radio and hearing they had just seen Santa and he would soon be arriving, one year I was a little scared and hid behind the stove.

I use to love help decorating the tree and I remember how much Dad hating hanging the lights, lol. I use to love seeing all the different ornaments especially the home made ones. And seeing the finished product was amazing. And seeing the first gifts go under was so exciting.

I remember how much I loves shaking and feeling all the gifts before Christmas and guessing what was inside. I remember laying in bed Christmas eve and dreaming about what I'd get. And Santa always came throught bringing me exactly what I wanted and more.

I can not wait for Christmas to come, it seems to just have a way of taking all the saddness away and making everything feel alright. So here's to new beginnings, traditions, and memories!