Ouch

I just got a slap in the face. After posting on here how horrible my day was because I got stuck in the rain and my shoe broke, I was reading another blog and directed to yet another blog. The post was made by a mother who gave birth to her first baby a few weeks ago, only to have it go on to heaven 10 hours later!!!!!

In a world where there is so much sadness, hurt, and pain who am I to complain. I have a wonderful husband (I can not believe I am old enough to say that), I have a place to call home, plenty to eat, I have my health, a great family, money in the bank, I can buy the things I need, and the things I don't need, I have tremdous friends, and the list goes on and on.

I can't believe how easily I get upset over the simple things in life. I take so much for granted. I just wish I could see things in perspective all the time and realize that I am a very lucky lady.
I need to remember that I have so much to be thankful for all the time. No matter what goes wrong in my life there is always something worse that could have happened. And no matter what happens there will always be people who love me and accept me, even when I fail or make the worng decision.

I have a wonderful life and am truely blessed!

All in a Days Work

Today Farron's office had a workshop from 12-3. Since I am not currently working and sit around all day with nothing to do I decided to join them after they invited me. So I had Farron set the alarm for 9 to give me plently of time to get ready.

Well 9 comes and goes and finally at 9:45 I literally roll out of bed, from what I can remember atleast. I run downstiars to check the bus schedule to see what time I have to leave to get there on time. Well I decide the later bus is too late, so I have to take the 10:26 bus.

So I rush around, muttering at how I don't want to leave early and how I am not sure why I am even going. And finally the time comes to leave. I have to take the alarm clock with me, because Farron's watch stopped and he took me watch. So whenever I wanted to check the time I had to peek in my bag and hope no one saw the alarm clock. Then when I got to Farron's office I took the battery out so no one would hear me ticking.

I have a half hour bus ride where I get to read my book, Zodiac. Then comes the train, and another 20 minute wait for the second bus. I could have walked but I would have been super early so I opted to sit on the bench and continue reading my book while waiting for the bus. So there are 3 empty benches, I pick one open my book and within a minute a man and woman arrive. And where does this lovely lady choose to sit? Right next to me. There were two other completely empty benches and she sits next to me. I have this thing with personal space and just do not understand why if you could sit alone you would choose to sit next to a complete stranger. The worst part is she was waiting for the same bus, arriving 20 minutes later, and she proceeds to kick her feet which aren't hitting the ground against the bench for the entire wait.

I arrive at Farron's office and everything goes smoothly. It's a bit late getting over, but no big deal, or so we thought. We decide to walk the 10 minutes to the train because it'll be a 15 minute wait for the bus. We walk about 2 minutes and then, complete down pour.

So it is raining cats and dogs , thundering, and we have no protection at all. We see the train coming, towards the end of our walk and have to run to try to get it, well we miss it. Luckily the next one wasn't too far behind. We get on the train and we only need to go a few stops, we make it to the first one and the driver comes on saying there will be a delay due to lightening. So we wait, he then informs us we need to get off the train it won't be going anyfurther. So we are stranded at the station, about 10 minutes later another train arrives and after a long long wait on the train without it moving, it finally proceeds to our destination.

We get off and go to the bank to cash Farron's check (we discovered we hate taxes today by the way). Well he goes to deposit it and the machines aren't accepting deposits. It's now 4:55 the bank is closing in 5 minutes. We get in line with 20 people infront of us. We finally get the check cashed at 5:10 and realize we have 10 minutes to get take out and make the bus home, which is a 5 minute walk away.

Just as we get ready to cross the street my sandal breaks!!!! I have to walk barefoot down the street. Hard to say what diseases I contracted. We decide to eat in and wait the extra half hour for the bus since we know we're going to miss the early one.

While Farron's ordering I see that our bus hasn't left yet. And by accident he ordered it to go. So we get our food. Run across the street, me in my bare foot (yes foot i kept the other shoe on), and have to flag the bus down because it has now pulled out to leave. Luckily he stops for us and after a 3 hour adventure on Calgary transit we made it home.

If the workshop would have ended on time, we would have avoided this whole fiasco.

Stolen From Twyla

Three names you go by?

1. Jana, not by choice
2. Janner, thanks to Jay and Jen
3. Boob, this is my fav., I love hearing it

Three physical things you like about yourself?

1. My eyelashes, actually maybe not. Sometimes they get all tangled and it really gets on my nerves
2. My hair...sometimes. Well again maybe not so much. It's so knotty, and makes me so hot. I wanna chop it off, but I know as soon as I do I will regret it....
3. My teeth. This use to be my favorite thing, but now one of my teeth has rotated and it really bothers me....

Three physical things you don't like about yourself?
See above, lol

1. Belly. On a side note I am really looking forward to having a baby, to turn this into a good thing.
2. Thighs, I just wish they wouldn't jiggle. It's so embarrassing, I hate wearing shorts.
3. Nose, it' s way too long and my profile is horrific

Three things you can't stand?

1. People who stare
2. Transit!!!!!!! We can not get a vehicle soon enough. 6 years of public transportation is too much
3. Smacking noises, especially from children

Three things that scare you?

1. The dark
2. Downtown
3. Germs

Three of your favorite shows?

1. Roseanne, I have 7 seasons on DVD!!!
2. Corner Gas, this is a new fav., I love the dry humor
3. Reba

Three movies you watch over and over again?

1. Happy Gilmore, it's where I get all my golfing tips
2. Shawshank, one of the first movies Farron and I watched together
3. Neopolian Dynamite, this movie is genius

Three of your everyday essentials?

1. Diet pop, it's an addiction really
2. TV
3. Computer

Three things you are wearing now?

1. plain white t-shirt
2. tall and lean jeans from the gap
3. Silver hoop earings

Three things you want in a relationship?

1. Love
2. Laughs
3. Loyalty

Three physical things about the opposite gender that appeals to you?

1. Teeth
2. Bubble Butts
3. Legs

Three bad habits?

1. Food, food, food
2. Worrying
3. Being too emotional, I am tearing up as I write this (not really, but it wouldn't surprise me)

Three careers you're currently considering pursuing?

1. mothering, it's a tough one and I know it's one you can't take back
2. public health, soon enough just need a few years of experience under my belt, at this rate it might take a bit longer than I think
3. singer, just ask Farron how this one is going. He loves it when I sing to him....ok, not so much

Three of your favorite hobbies?

1. Shopping, especially for shoes
2. Writing, even though I don't do it as much as I should
3. complaining, this is one I am extremely good at, unfortunately

Three places you want to go on vacation?

1. Nova Scotia, I miss my friends and family so much already!!!
2. New Zealand, need to see where the Lord of the Rings movies were filmed
3. Egypt, not really sure why...

Three kids name you like?

1. I'm not going to post them, I want them all to be surprises when I have all my babies
2.
3.

Three things you want to do before you die?

1. Get in shape, like have actual muscle tone and be able to run upstairs without being out of breath
2. Learn to drive. Seriously, I have to do this soon...we might be getting a car real soon!!!
3. Travel the world with my hubby and not have to worry about how much we're spending

Three things that stereotypically prove you're a girl?

1. I love having my nails painted
2. I love shoes more than life itself
3. And diamonds are my best friend

Initials of three crushes?

1. FWN
2. sorry
3. and again my apologie

Lucky Duck

Farron's first patient this morning cancelled, so I was able to travel to work with him and get my teeth cleaned for free. They feel so clean, and my gums are relatively healthy, lol. Anyways, back to the lucky part.

I arrive at his office and am introduced to the assistant. She was very welcoming and tried small talking with me. Within the first 2 minutes her and Farron were joking around. Next I meet the receptionist. She is such a nice lady and so easy to tak to. At the end of the appointment she invited me to hang out and everything. And finally I got to meet the dentist. He again was super nice. Making plans for us all to hang out in the near future, asking about my new position, etc....Farron's new, but there is no way anyone would tell that from the way the whole office interacts.

I think Farron truely was blessed with one of the greatest offices around. They all just get along so well and everything just seems to flow together. Secretly I am jealous, but I am also so happy that he has the opportunity to work there and be around such tremendous people all day everyday.

Complete Downer

I feel like being a complete complainer today. So if you wish to remain in a somewhat happy/good mood I would recommend not reading this.

Things that are wrong with my lave the life, bothering me, or I am worrying about

1. Work, I am terrified of working. I want to be a stay at home wife. Seriously, thinking about working anywhere really stresses me out. I am just so terrified of messing up, hurting someone, or getting fired. I hate the thought of being gone all day, getting home long enough to eat and shower, and then it's time for bed again. I don't want to be an adult anymore.

2. I am over half way across the country from the majority of my friends and family. My new baby niece was just born, my sister and her kids are all at my parents for the week, and here I sit all alone. I miss being around people especially family. Sometimes, I just wish I could hop in a car and visit even for just an hour. Being apart from so many people all at once is overwhelming. And the worst part is I have no idea when I will have the chance to go home again.

3. My bestfriend is getting married in October and I can't be there. Having to move for work really sucks.

4. So today I decided to start the 1200 cal diet again. Ever since the wedding I haven't stopped eating, and it has been mostly junk. So today I thought I should try and make things right again. It's only a little after lunch and I already don't think I can last the day.

5. Germs. I am terrified of germs and it is something that is on my mind rather often. Everytime I touch something, I have to think if my hands are clean, and who will be touching it after that might get my germs.

6. My last place of employment, still has not paid me. They haven't even asked for my SIN. I only lasted 4 days but I made more money then I would have a whole month working last summmer, so it's not something I can just let slide. But as usual I am too scared to ask about it. So I am going to have to call after hours and leave them a message.

7. Lately, I have been feeling really lonely. I hate the fact that Farron and I are now separated during days and possibly some week-end days as well. I just want to spend every waking moment with him. He is my life and the air I breath and being here without him really bites.

8. Construction crew men are always lurking around the neighbourhood and frankly they just creep me out. I would love to wake up some day and have an empty area, with no crew, no machines and no noise.

9. My hair has been getting on my nerves lately too. I always have to wear it up, and when it is down I have to use my sunglasses like a headband to keep it out of my face. I want a change, but again am terrified. I know if I chop it I will regret it. But I don't see any sense of just getting a little cut off, because then no one can even tell.

Well there is my vent hopefully the only one for a long time. In an ideal world I would be living at home with not a care in the world running my own business with Farron. Not stuck here alone

Game Over

Shadowing went well....for the most part. They asked me to work on a few kids, but I didn't feel comfortable and said no. And now I am scared that the whole office hates me before I even start. It seems I always have to mess something up and have something to worry about. It seriously drives me crazy how my mond works. I hate it and I do not no how long I can put up with myself.

Shadowing

Well I leave to job shadow in about 15 minutes. I am incredibly nervous and I am not sure why. All I am going for is to watch the other hygienist do a few appointments and ask her any questions I might have. I guess I am scared they will get me to actually work. But I am sure they won't since I am going in today on my own time, I actually asked if I could since my last office chucked me into it and I had no idea what I was doing.

I am actually shaking as I write this. What is wrong with me? Why am I so scared of the unknown? I guess I just really worry about not being good enough, about messing up, and looking stupid and/or being incompetent. I know I can do this I have been training for 2 years and I graduated, if I could get through school, I can certainly get through work.

Work is just so different from school. Here it seems like you are completely on your own and you decide when you are finished and if you are doing a good job. It's up to me to do it all and that scares me. What if I miss finding things, what if I don't do 100%?????

Well enough worries for now. Hopefully I'll get through the day in one piece and will feel more at ease about the whole dh position when I get home. I just hope I am brave enough to ask all my questions!

Well I'd better head out.

Tip: Don't Floss with Hair

This week-end started off with a bang. Farron was suppose to play his game friday night, but being the witch that I am I put up a fuss, acted like a baby, which resulted in Farron deciding not to play his game. Well once I got my way, I felt horrible and wanted him to play. But he stuck to his decision and we enjoyed the night together just chatting and hanging out. The next day he dedicated his whole day to me again and again on sunday!!! He didn't play his game all week-end, I was sooo impressed...shocked actually.

Saturday we went grocery shopping and then decided to go to the movies. We saw Superbad! This was the best movie I have seen in a really long time. We laughed the whole way through, too funny. There was a lot of penis humor, which was so funny. This movie was just a feel good movie. I'd definitely recommend seeing it, especially if you have a sick sense of humor. But one this that did bother me was some people brought their children, it was rated 18, no children should not have been there. I don't understand why parents think it is okay to take their kids (not even teenagers) to see such an adult humored movie.

After the movie we went to Walmart to pick up some things for our guest room, since we're having company this week-end!!!! I am soo excited about that. Once we had made our purchases we were off to the bus stop. While sitting there, Farron tells me I have a chive stuck between my teeth. So he directs my finger and I tried to dislodge it with no luck. So I get the bright idea to use a strand of my hair and floss it out. Well folks this might seem like a good idea, but it is not. I get the hair half way to the gum line and it snaps off, not only does it snap but a piece of the hair gets wedged in between my teeth. So now not only do I have a visible green chive I now have a short piece of brown hair. And the worst part I can feel it! So I try again this time using more than one strand, I use a few and well the same thing happens again. It was kinda funny. Eventually I was able to get a hold of the hair and pull it out and by the time I got home the chive had disappeared as well, thankfully.

Once we got home we set up the bedroom and Farron made homemade donuts, ahh they were so good! He made lemon and chocolate ones. He can seriously make anything and make it taste fantabulous!!! He's a doll and I owe him everything.

Who am I to get upset when he wants to play his game. He works all day long and hard at that. And at the very moment he is supporting me, not only financially but in every other sense of the word as well. He truly is the greatest husband in the world. I really hate the fact that we have to work. I mean for the last 6 years we have been going to school together and seeing each other practically 24-7. So now that he is working, I just feel so deprived and alone. I want to be with him 24/7 and enjoy being newly weds!!!

Fess Up Friday

1. I really enjoy watching The Cosby Show re-runs

2. I had a crush on my grade two teacher (Mr.Clark) and my grade 6 teacher (Mr. Randell)

3. I sported a perm for most of my child/adolescent life

4. I laid awake in bed this morning from 5-6 learning to say my ABC's backwards

5. I've had a pregnancy scare

6. I didn't cuddle Farron last night, I was mad because he worked a long day, came home and played that stupid WOW all night, I barely got to see or talk to him!!!!

7. I honestly don't know what "made from concentrate" means

8. This will be the first September in 19 years I won't be going back to school

9. I used my student ID at the zoo to get a cheaper rate even though I am no longer a
student...it doesn't expire till August 31st though....

10. I really wanna be home right now, I have a new baby niece!

I Worry soo Much.....

.....that I stay up half the night thinking about things that don't really matter
....that I think I am developping an ulcer
....that I can go almost all day without food
....that I shake when doing new things
....that I take everything personal
....that I am now fearful of going almost anywhere alone
....that I am scared of personally destroying everything I touch
....that I have to think out what people will think when I say anything
....that I won't look people in the eye
.....ahh the list goes on and on. I think you get the point. I am a worrier and want to be a warrior!

So Glad...So Gladiolous

Here's a little update of the last week or so....

Today when we were out grocery shopping Farron picked out some beautiful gladiolous' for our table.


Lastnight Farron and I went over to Aaron and Tanya's for a BBQ. They just had the deck built so we had the chance to enjoy it. We had wings, steak, toss salad, and German potatoe salad (if you have never had this you have to try it, it is to die for), and for dessert we had marble cake with chocolate frosting soo soo yummy. We had a nice time chilling out, enjoying some drinks, and talking the night away.

I started work last week and well let's just say I was ecstatic when the week-end finally rolled around.

My first day

I had friday, saturday, and today off. An office called me on wednesday to come in for an interview on friday. I decided to go since it would cut my commute in half. So I travel on the transit, on my day off to meet with this dentist. I get there and he basically tells me, the office is a mess, he doesn't know what's going on, or when they would need me, or anything else. I was in his office for like 2 minutes. He asked when I wanted to work and what I expected to get paid and that was it! I was so mad when I left I decided to burn off my madness with some much needed shopping.

Some of the clothes from the shopping spree

In celebration of the week-end Farron and I hung out on the deck, enjoying the weather, a few drinks, and each others company. We tried taking some pictures to capture the moment....not much luck.


Farron is really enjoying his job, the office, and the people. I am so happy for him. It's nice when he comes home, he's actually smiling.

Farron's first day of work! Too cute.

Ten Things I Loathe/Love about Work

1. Eating one meal a day. Possibly losing weight.
2. Getting up at the crack of dawn. Not wasting my life sleeping.
3. An hour transit ride. Not having to walk to work.
4. Not getting a minute's break all day. No time for boredom.
5. Holding in urine for an 8 hour shift. Saving money on tp.
6. Having the urge to throw-up all day long. Almost impossible to eat :)
7. Getting home two hours after your shift ended. Well there is no good side to this one....
8. Being a tad scared of your employer. I am sure to try my hardest to impress.
9. Feeling completely inadequate. Gradually gaining confidence.
10. Having the fear of making a mistake. Learning new things.

Unrealistic Realities

So I have developed a germ phobia, kind of a little OCD. The weird thing about it, is I am not scared of the germs affecting me but I am terrified of me being the cause of someone getting sick. Now in all reality these things won't hurt people but deep down inside me there is this little voice that tells me I have to tell someone things I've touched, or clean things I have touched so they don't get the germs that were on my hands!?!

For exam I hate opening the washer after the clothes are clean, because I feel like my hands were dirty when I opened it, so now when I open it again I will pick up the germs and then the clothes will be dirty again. Or if I touch my bag that goes to work, then everything I touch after that is contaminated. And sitting on the bus I feel like any part of my body that touches anything is gross and dirty and I need to tell Farron if I touch anything afterwards with these parts. Or if my purse that touched the ground/floor touches my pants then I am filthy. And the list goes on and on.

And at work it is ten times worse, I can not graze a surface with my pant leg, top, arm, or hand or anything else without feeling like I need to sterilize it. Yesterday I washed my hands so much it looks like I have a burn on my whole hand and it ends right at the glove line, and is completely dried out. In one day I went through 50+ pairs of gloves and at least a whole roll of paper towel.

I am a bit concerned about this obsession. I mean I know these things are true, things are dirty and contaminated, but people have been doing them forever, and not a lot of negative has happened. I haven't heard of too many people dying from opening a washer handle and touching the clean clothes....

WOW

To some of you wow is a three letter word used to express wonder, amazement, or great pleasure, according to the online definition. This word generally has a positive conotation to me. I use it when I am excited about something, thrilled with a gift, or surprised. However, since 2005 this word has taken on a whole new meaning to me.

From that moment on wow has earned a much deserved negatory meaning. This wow is very powerful. It can cause great arguments, steal precious hours of time that could be spent with your spouse or family, it can cause health problems (ie.carpel tunnel), and lastly it may inhibit ones ability to separate real life from pretend.

Once wow was shown to me I was opened up to a whole new world of words. For one, quest, this is the event my husband partakes in for a minimum of two nights a week for a minimum of 5 hours per night. I was also taught the word guild, this is the group of online characters to "quest" together. And then there is the list of character races, at which point I am unable to recall. There is also the much dreaded message boards at which point the real players can converse as real people as opposed to characters and talk about how much their spouses hate them wasting all of their time playing this useless game! And they can also compare the amout of useless fake gold they have made, which can actually be sold for actual money!!! Yes that's right these people can play the game all day and make gold and then sell it for REAL LIFE money! This makes no sense to me but anyways....

Yes my friend this three letter acronym actually stands for World of Warcraft. And if you type wow into google the first page of results have nothing to due with the actual word, they are links to world of warcraft. This game is taking over my husband's life as well as the internet and a great number of other men and women's lives.

As I was laying in bed at 2:3o the other night, I had this rant all planned out in my head, perfectly. Yet now as I type it is not nearly as great as I had anticipated. I think I need to start sleeping with a note pad beside my bed so these events to not occur again.

So when you see WOW, just say NO!

Graduation Day

On May 23rd I graduated from Dalhousie University with a diploma in dental hygiene. I never had the chance to post about it or the after party, because shortly after I moved home for a while and was internet deprived so I thought I would take this opportunity to share that day with you and myself so in a few years I will be able to look back on this and possibly remember somethings I otherwise wouldn't.

The day before graduation I got my hair cut and straightened which I loved, but the 'rents not so much. Oh well Farron liked it and wants me to get it done again so no one else really matters, lol. That night my parents, Aunt Joanne, Lucy, and Fred arrived. We spent the night chatting, tasted Farron's fondant cake (I still think he should have made our wedding cake, but I'll let sleeping dogs lay), and a few of us went shopping.


Early the next morning we awoke and were off for graduation which started at 9:00am. It was also as this time that we met up with Steven and Stacey. We waited upstairs with our class for what felt like a century and then in we march to the packed auditorim. Once my name was called and I crossed the stage my Dad, from the balcony yells, "That's my girl." I was not the least embarrassed, I actually felt proud that he would embarrass himself and do that for me. I stopped half way across the stage and waved up to him.


I then had to stop and talk to the dean like man before receiving my diploma. He talked to me forever, asking who my dad was and when I was getting married. I guess he saw my ring and I told him Farron would be talking to him shortly. And sure enough he was. When Farron crossed the stage dad said he was tempted to say that's my future son-in-law but felt better of it. The dean man asked Farron about Clark's Harbour, I think.


After graduation ceremony we headed down to the public gardens for pics and then off to Montana's for lunch. After lunch we did some packing and cleaning. And then headed down to the hotel where our grad banquet was held. Lucy got Farron and I are very own room. This was our first hotel experience together and it was great. We had a king bed, it was soo huge and high I loved it. We also had robes and breakfast served right to our door.


About an hour before go time, Farron and I were walking downtown Halifax in search of what else but shoes!!!! I knew the ones I wanted and needed to compliment my new charcole dress, the hot pink heels!! We made it back in time for a quick shower and then we were off.


We all mingled around for a bit and enjoyed the appetizers before we were seated and the ceremony began. At this time some speeches were made. Prof. Grant provided out toast and mentions my bachelorette party! And then dinner began.


Dinner consisted of a huge buffet with an amazing assortment of cheesecakes!!! And can you believe right before dinner I came down with one of the worst migraines I have ever had and missed out on the whole thing. There were steamed mussels and everytime I caught a whiff of them I thought I was going to lose my lunch. I remember Fred got ketchup all over his tie, it looked like he had been stabbed in the heart, lol.

After dinner speeches began again, the best one being from our valedictorian. She wrote a song about the class and performed it, it was the best thing ever. I was laughing so hard I was crying, everything she said in the song was hilarious and so true. She did an amazing job! Way to go!!!

And the evening ended with a dance. Not alot of people stayed but those of us that did made the most of it. And to top it off we had a little gathering in our room before calling it a night and parting our ways.


It was a great day! But I am so glad I will never be back at Dalhousie as a student ever again! Congrats DH grads of '07!

Sheer Terror

For those of you who may not know I start my career monday. And to say the least I am terrified. I went into the office yesterday for a few minutes to get familiar with my cubicle, etc... I think it might have been a huge mistake, the hygienist was showing me all this new stuff that Dal neglected to teach me. Anyways, I know it is all new and I am not suppose to feel comfortable my first day but I am just so scared of not liking it, messing up, or getting fired.

My first appointment on monday I will be there all alone, no assistant, hygienist, or denist. I have to fend for myself and that kinds freaks me out. I am such a worrier and I am just thinking about all the possible things that can go wrong. I have no confidence in myself and it is driving me crazy. I have been doing this for two years, I know what I am doing! So why do my thoughts try to tell me otherwise.

Our Neighbourhood

My Sexy Masked Man

Farron hadn't shaved for a few days so I made him leave a moustache to see what it would look like, before he finished shaving. It lasted all of 1 minute, just long enough to get these pics.
Priceless!!!! He's such a good sport!

Choose Up

So yesterday at Sobey's I was in search of some diet pop. Usually I buy diet coke, but decided to look around a bit to see if there was anything cheaper I'd rather drink. So we opted for a clear pop instead. Not 7-up, not Sprite, but Diet Choose Up!!!

Choose up? It doesn't really make any sense. Cola was still cola, root beer root beer, and orange orang, so why Choose up? It's kind of weird how clear pop doesn't have a standard name. Anyways, I just love the no name brands product names. Like Fruit Loops are call Fruity O's or something like that.

And Shreddies has this new advertisement campaign where they say now they are diamond shaped. So they just moved it sideways, I think this is kind of ingenious! Check out their site:
http://www.diamondshreddies.ca/

Her Love for Shoes

From the day I was born until I was twelve I spent every sunday at my Nana's house. All 6 of us would pile into my Dad's blue pick-up truck after sunday school and church and drive half an hour to see my Nana.

Sunday afternoons were filled with more treats than any grandchild should ever consume. Everytime I see those marshmallow icecream cones, black toffee candy, and no name chips I think of her. And I think this is where my love for cheese developped. She was always sitting at the kitchen table when we arrived waiting for us or visiting with my other aunts and uncles.

Her house was the meeting area for all of mom's siblings and their children. Sometimes the house would be packed. I spent many afternoons walking the floors with my baby counsin. I would often sneak into her room and try on her jewelry, she had boxes full. I loved going into her closet and looking at all her shoes. Sometimes when everyone else left I'd paint my nails with her nail polish. It was at her house I made my first phone call to my grade 7 boyfriend, lol.

I remember my Nana having great taste in clothes and shoes. She always looked so well put together. Her skin was always so soft and her hair was always done. She'd show us every sunday what new outfit she got that week probably with a purse and shoes to match! Much like myself she didn't have much patients for crafty things but she did knit and quilt. I still have the baby quilt she made me, it's a bit small but comfy and reminds me of her.

I loved going to her house and watching this talent search shoe there was always little girls on their who were dancing, or singing, or playing the piano and I wanted to be just like them. I also remember watching the Christmas Daddies and I was allowed to call in and vote on this stocking full of gifts that was like 10 feet tall.

She made the best brown bread in the world, to this day I have had nothing like it. And her fudge was to die for it was sooo good. This year at the stampede I bought a piece of old fashion fudge and it was like I was sitting in my Nana's kitchen I can see the pan she cooked it in and everything.

It seems lately I have been missing my Nana a lot, and a lot of things bring her to mind. While I was home for the wedding I was looking for something old to wear so I was going through some of her jewelry and it smelled just like her. So many feelings came running back! She put baby powder on everything and that is exactly what her necklaces smelled like. After all these years I was surprised the scent was still there, I guess with baby power you get your money's worth.

My Nana was the most active 72 year old I had ever met. She was involved in her church, had a great group of friends she was always joking around with. She travelled to Florida, Bahamas, and Yarmouth every week with her new boyfriend. She was always on the go and minus diabetes was perfectly healthy. If you were to meet her you would not have guessed her age. Then all of the sudden out of the blue she started to have stomach aches. After some time she was diagnosed with inoperable stomach cancer. My dad had to tell her the news.

I remember visiting her in the hospital still in good spirits. She was always joking around with the nurses and making friends with her roommates. After pretty severe deterioration, massive weightloss, and dementia she was brought home to spend her last days. It was close to Christmas and mom and her siblings took turns staying with her. She looked horrible, she was so frail, she could barely eat and at times didn't know who was who.

It was hard seeing the Nana I knew disappear...and in January she was gone forever. I miss her so much. She was just a great lady and I want to be like her. She never seemed to let things get to her and she had so many hobbies. I just loved going to her house and seeing her and all her things. My parents moved back into her house and I stay in her room sometimes when I am visiting, it's so different now. But it will always have that special place in my heart!

A few days after the wedding Farron and I had the chance to go visit my grandparents gravesite. I was able to place a bouquet from the wedding on her grave, eventhough she wasn't at the wedding atleast she got a small taste!

The day before I moved to Calgary my Aunt Joanne (another great lady who has treated me so much like a grandchild, she's amazing) came to visit me. And she gave me the greatest gift I could ever hope for. She gave me my Nana's first wedding band from my Dada, and it fit perfect. It is so special to me and so beautiful. It is a constant reminder of the beautiful lady who was my Nana.

I so so wish she would have had the opportunity to meet Farron, I know she would have fallen in love with him and teased him to death. I wish she could see me now, I know she'd be so proud. And I wish she could be here when I have a little baby. She was such an amazing lady and I just wish I would have had the opportunity to get to know her even more.

Every sunday before I'd leave I'd always give her a kiss and know that I'd be seeing her next week. I just wish next week could come one more time!

I love you Nana!!!

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