The Last Carnation

Farron and I had a wonderful "date night" tonight. We've seen eachother 24/7 for the past I don't know how long, but it's been a while since we actually made time for each other. He cooked me a wonderful pasta supper. Then we popped some pop corn, drank our diet cokes and watch the Wedding Singer. I love that movie, it gets more funny everytime I watch it. But as I watched it I got this knotty feeling in my stomach. I am getting married!!! I am soooo excited, I can not wait. I have been waiting for years for this day and it is going to be the best day of my life. The reason I am soo nervous is I am scared of ruining it. Seriously, I don't think people get how badly I shake! I mean I really shake when I get nervous and well I am terrified that this will happen and I will ruin everything. I love Farron to death and want this day to be special, in a good way not in the way where everyone remembers it because I was doing my ugly cry or shaking so bad I had to sit. I am sure everything will be fine, but the thought of something going wrong is really stressing me out. Anyways, back to the title of the blog. For the past two weeks Farron and I have been drinking Carnation instant breakfasts for breakfast. This morning he asked if I wanted one and I said yes, so he made it for me. I drank it without really noticing what he was doing. Then I realized I had a breakfast one morning when he didn't, which meant there was only one left, the one he just made for me. I thought this was the sweetest thing ever, especially the fact that he didn't even let on he had done it. Awww What a sweetie pie!!!