Why can't everyone be rich?

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I remember asking my mom as a child why everyone wasn't rich. I couldn't understand why there were some people who didn't have any money, because all the money you needed was enough to buy a cheque book and then you could just write the cheque out for as much as you needed. Ahh if only life were that simple! I have a cheque book but no money. I hate not having money, yet I keep spending it anyways. Like today I plan to spend the whole day shopping, hopefully getting a pair of shoes and some more Christmas presents, only 4 more people to buy for!!!

Thursday morning naps

Okay so this year I have 40 hours of school (classes/clinic) a week which is totally insane and unfair!!! Not only do we have class but then we have hours and hours of group work, tests to study for, and classes to prepare for. Needless to say there is no time for a social life or relaxation of any kind. I am so tired all the time...I am just dragging. Anyways I have this one prof. who is so awesome, she is so laid back and mellow it's impossible to explain. I want to be just like her. I can not even imagine her ever raising her voice or worrying about a thing. We have a class with her every thursday morning and for the last 30 minutes of every class she puts on a relaxation tape, we all lay on the floor including her, and relax/sleep. It gives me a little something to look forward to every week. It's nice having a prof. who actually cares about her students. Our assignment for her this week is to do something we really enjoy, something that makes us happy!! How cool is that. I am so going shoe shopping :)

Moods

I am in the happiest mood I have been in, for no apparent reason! I'm loving it, I've been really giddy all day...maybe I'm just over tired. Oh well I might as well enjoy it while it lasts.

100 things about me

1. I love goodnight kisses
2. I'm the baby of the family
3. I have 3 nephews and 1 niece
4. I have found my soul mate
5. I hate population health
6. I love making scrubs
7. I love talking to my mom after a long day
8. I'll always be daddy's little girl
9. I gave my cat to my parents, I miss her
10.My cell phone sucks
11.I have my BSc
12.I'm studying to become a dental hygienist
13.Walmart in my fav store
14. Blueberry bagles with butter are awesome
15.I love flowy skirts
16.I have a shoe addiction
17.I want to adopt a baby
18.I love small dogs
19.I can't cook, but I can bake...sometimes
20.I graduated in french immersion
21.I have to check the alarm more than once a night
22.I am fearful of the unknown
23.I'm scared of being wrong
24.I want to get married in Disney World
25.I got my ears pierced last week-end
26.I have hairy toes
27.I use to work selling sunglasses
28.My fav job was working at Langille's convenience store
29.I have a huge doll collection
30.I'm scared of the dark
31.I have a second wisdom tooth coming in where the old one was taken out
32.I hate doctors
33.In grade 11 I had a conference report published
34.I got a 100 on a grade 12 high powered math test!!!!
35.I love cheese
36.I can't wait for Thanksgiving
37.I think there is something medically wrong with me
38.I can't eat till 5 on mondays cause I'm too nervous about clinic
39.I don't have my license
40.I've never smoked a cigarette
41.I love snow on Christmas day
42.I never thought Tom Cruise was cute
43.I think Lisa Marie Presley is the most beautiful women ever
44.I'm addicted to reading other peoples blogs
45.I've gotten 10 grand taken off my student loan
46.I use to play soft ball
47.I love swimming
48.The Decent made it hard for me to breathe
49.Over the Hedge made me smile
50.I have every possible Tweety article imaginable
51.I think my Teddy Bear had feelings
52.I'm turning into a germ phob
53.I hate metro transit
54.I hate paying for my laundry
55.I love to write poetry
56.I enjoy responsive writing as well
57.I think I am overweight
58.I want to get a nose job
59.I love the take off and landing when flying
60.I got locked in a storage closet at a bar once
61.I hate public speaking
62.I'm scared of the rapture
63.I miss bonkers candy
64.I love papasan chairs
65.Rosanne is my favorite show
66.I want to bungee jump before I die
67.I've been on the Maid of the Mist at Niagra Falls
68.I yelled to Joe Carter at a Blue Jay's game
69.I got in trouble in grade primary for walking home from school
70.I can't stand to see or taste farmer's strawberry milkshakes thanks to my old teacher
71.I use to love playing school with my brothers
72.I have dry skin
73.I'm shy
74.I don't drink coffee or tea
75. I love diet coke
76.My eyes change from blue to green
77.I have a birth mark under my arm
78.I can touch my tongue to my nose
79.I'm short
80.My pants always drag on the ground
81.I hate wearing shorts
82.My thighs jiggle when I walk
83.I know how to put a sealant in a tooth
84.I love to watch spelling bees, I think it's a sport
85.I'm scared of horses
86.I'm terrified of birds
87.I heard a gorilla fart
88.I went to the Calgary Stampede
89.I saw my nephew take his first steps
90.I named my niece
91.My nana died when I was 13, I miss her
92.My dad has MS
93.My mom had a brain tumor and now has tunnel vision due to it's removal
94.I didn't have cable in highschool
95.I didn't have my own bedroom till grade 7
96.I had an operation in grade 12 for removal of a thrombosis
97.I love winter storms
98.I love boat rides and roller coasters
99.I want to travel
100.I need sleep!!!

When you need it the Most

Yesterday I had the pleasant surprise of getting something in the mail other than a bill. It was a card of encouragement, which I really needed. Reading those words made me cry and realize I can get through this, and I will. The words of praise and positivity made me, as well as my heart, smile. I am so lucky to have such special people in my life, who would go out of their way to write and let me know it's all going to be okay. Thank you so much.

Miranda Priestly

Okay so I started reading The Devil Wears Prada, I love the book and can't wait to finish it. Anyways in the mean time, I've watched the movie which was good, yet such a let down from the book. They changed the characters names, and what they look like, where they live, and what they do. I hate that about books made into movies, they take away all your creativity and imagination. Now when I read the book I don't see the characters I made up I see the stupid actors...oh well note to self, read books completely then watch the movie.

Bouncing Baby Boy!!!

My sister gave birth this morning to her third child, a baby boy!!! I'm just waiting to hear all the details, I am so excited and can't wait to see the little guy.

Count Down

So here I sit the last day off before back to school and back to clinic for another week. I'm feeling kind of strange, just feeling like I should be doing something, worrying about something, studying something, or cleaning something. But here I sit tying to relax, trying not to over think every little thing I say or do, trying to enjoy my last day off, trying to make some time for myself. But all I seem to do is think of how quick it will go, how soon I will be back, and how I will start the week-end count down and then this cycle will begin again...

Boys are better than Girls

Ever since I can remember I have always got along better and found it so much easier to talk to guys than gals. A lot of my close friends are guys and I just find it so much easier to confide in them than my girl friends. I think girls can be more back stabby than guys, guys keep secrets better than girls, and guys are way less judgemental. It's so much easier to be myself around guys. As weird as it sounds, I just find hanging with guys I feel as though I can look and say what I want without fear of being rejected or judged. Guys seem so more laid back and easy to talk to. The thing I find ironic is most guys find it easier talking to girls than guys. I guess it just feels less intimidated talking to someone of the opposite sex, since you don't have to compete with them.

Here's the Deal

Okay so after a full year of DH I have finally realized that this whole school thing is meant to be a learning experience. I have a whole year left and therefore am not meant to know everything now, or be perfect at what I have learned already. The clinic and my clinic patients is a time for me to gain real hand on experiences and learn from them. This conclusion being made, I am now actually somewhat enjoying my time at DAL, it's so neat being able to work one-on-one with patients, meeting new people, and putting everything together that we have learned so far. There have been a couple times so far that I have had "Aha" moments and now I am sctually starting to see some progress in my techniques. Our class has come so far since last September. This year is going to be challenging and have ups and downs. But here's the deal, I realize this is a time for me to ask questions, try new things, and forget about always having to be right, it's okay to be wrong and make mistakes as long as you take something from them.

It's Okay

Can't someone please just tell me it's okay to give up!

Overwhelmed

So yesterday afternoon something really overwhelming happened inside of me. It's a bit difficult to explain but all these negative emotions came over me, my mind was racing, and I just felt completely hopeless. While eating supper I burst into tears, and had to go have a little cry. I've lost a little bit of my appetite, find it hard to laugh, and just don't feel like myself. It's a bit scary.

I've only been to school for 4 days and I am already stressed to the max. I'm not sure what to do I just feel like this is the last place I want to be. I am so sick of school, and having to worry constantly on how I am doing, what I am doing, and if I am going to be able to do this. I see so many people who do fine withut post secondary education, and find myself wondering why I am here.

I am a little homesick. I miss my family and want to go home. I don't want to do this school thing anymore....

The Palace

Okay so lastnight I went on a cruise of the harbour on the Tall Ship Silva, it was loads of fun. The deck was packed with hygiene and dental students and the live band even played some MC Hammer!!! The cruise was fun but at the end we didn't feel the evening was over so off the group of 5 of us march in search of some night life excitement, well we walked and walked and walked and our group got smaller and smaller, in the end it was just three of us in search of a good bar. Well we finally decided on the Palace....What a let down...well maybe not I had a few good laughs and some scary memories. When we first get there the bar is holding maybe 20 people and as we look behind us there's this guy behind a glass barrier watching the dance floor and eating an O'Henry Bar! I have never seen anyone eat a bar at a bar. How boring must a place be when you have the chance to pick up but instead you decide to munch on some chocolate covered peanuts?? Anyways, we decided to make the most of it and hit the dance floor. Well here we met the creepiest guy ever!!!! He was there as part of a group and looked as though he was missing a few screws. Well I think in this case you can judge a book by it's cover. He would come up behind every girl including myself and touch/grope you. So you had to watch him and when he came your way stare him down, then he'd make this motion with his hands, he'd put them both up as a dense and pretend to be sorry. He came up behind my friend and kicked her, so we spend the night trying to dodge the peerve...Well that's it, I made it home at 2:00am and am now up and ready to hit the mall!!!

Tall Ship Silva

Tonight I"m going on a cruise...I am soo excited...

That's all

Day 2

Well today was the second day of school for me and well....it is sooo overwhelming!
Lastnight our class went out to supper at Your Father's Moustache (yummy!!), I enjoyed the food and had some good laughs. The waitress brought my friend a drink, with a huge curly hair in it, gross. Anyway, if this would have happened to me I would have just kept quiet and not had anything to drink, yet I couldn't let my friend do the same so I told the waitress and she brought her a new one. Isn't it weird how we do things out of our comfort zone when it comes to other people, but not for ourselves?
To top the night off Farron, Dave, Laura, and I sat around shooting the breeze and enjoyed a few brew (well not me), then we all headed over to Chantel, Amy, and Miranda's place for a little party. It was an all around good night and a great way to finish a hectic day.
So overall I guess I am glad to be back, yet still a little apprehensive about how things are going to turn out. So for now I am just looking forward to the friday night boat cruise.
A couple of quotes I heard lastnight and want to remember:
1. "I can't imagine if anything happened to my hamster, but a cat...that's like 18 hamsters." -M
2. " That cat, it's a human being in fur." - S

School...UGH

Okay so tomorrow I begin my last year of university..for a while anyways. I am so nervous, I'm a little sick to my stomache actually. On the other hand I am so excited, only eight more months and I will be out in the real world, ready to settle down, get married, start a family, and pay off student loans (ouch)! I am so scared of this year because well, we will be seeing clients three days a week and I always get nervous when I'm with clients, I love the work and what I do but having a professor breathing down your neck, and knowing if you make one little mistake then you have to start all over again...And the worse thing of all it this year we have to complete 40 patients and well instead of the school calling and arranging our appointments, no no we have to call all of our clients, ask when and if they want to come in and let them know that it will probably be a minimum of 3, 3 hour appointments...I am just so scared of not completing them on time. I know I worry too much but well I don't know what else to do.
On a plus note, I have the best group of friends in the world and am looking forward to getting back and seeing them all.

Digi Cam

Well I'm off to buy a digital camera, I am soo excited!!! I'm also getting some paint, black and pink to paint my dresser, I'll post some pics when it's all pretty!! I'm in such a great mood today...I hope it lasts. I don't know why but I just feel on top of the world.

Doctors

Do doctors actually go to university for 8 years to learn how to tell patients their problems are just normal? You see there is something wrong with me, I know there is. I've had a nurse as well as a pathologist tell me that I really need to be referred to a hematologist. Over the summer I was constantly breaking out in bruises for no reason whatsoever, and I don't mean one or two here and there I mean 20-30 all over my legs! Well I went to my doctor last week about it and he of course sent me for useless blood work. Today I had to go get the results and as usual the blood work came back fine, however he didn't check my blood count, etc...He only tested my platelets and their functioning and for one blood disorder. And then he had the nerve to tell me the reason I am bruising is because my skin is thin, so t's just all caused from trauma. Yes doctor I've been bumping into things with out knowing it 30 times a day, that must be the problem. I know I am no expert, but he's only a GP shouldn't he atleast send me to a specialist. The thing that scares me the most is it could be leukemia...yet he is dismissing the whole thing. I've seen way too many people listen to a GP only to find out in the end they really did have something life threatening wrong with them. I want to stand up for myself but am too threatened by my doctor's education to say anything. What should I do???