Well I did it once today...oh well better luck tomorrow I guess.

Once again this thing with my stomach has got in the way. Tonight my bf's mom invited me out to supper but I couldn't go because of the pain, will this ever go away? No! I need help but don't know where to go my doctor isn't helpful at all so now where do I turn. I feel like a freak and I know people think I am. Everyone who finds out must think I'm crazy, I know people must believe I can control it, but I honestly can't. I'm not making it up and I can not make it go away on my own, if I could I would. I am sick of living like this and would do anything to make it go away, to be able to live a normal life again would be soo soo nice, but right now it seems an unobtainable option. I can't beleive something as simple as a trip to the grocery store is becoming such a disaster for me. I'm not sure how much more of this my stomach can take. It just seems like it is getting worse as opposed to better and I don't know how far it can possibly go, I'm starting to think I am turning into a shut in. I'm so scared....someone, anyone help me. Please help me!!!