Note to self,
Never tell your children they can be anything they want. While this may sound negative it really isn't. Why set your youngsters up for disappointement? Everyone grew up with the notion they could be a doctor, lawyer, hockey player, singer, and actor. If this were so true then why are there so many people who are unsatisfied with their careers?!
Just a thought.

Yay, long week-end...finally! My life is like one big roller-coaster with so many ups and downs, one minute I can not stand the program I'm in and just want out so badly, then I'm in life with my life and the way all the pieces are fitting together, I just wish I could make up my mind. Oh well atleast this way there seems to be a onstant which means I'm not getting bored and taking things for granted, I'm actively seeking what I feel is best for me and always trying to weigh the pro's and con's of each decision I make.

If anyone out there ever reads this I just have one question, do you ever feel like you have no choice in life? I mean lately I just feel as though I am getting pushed through life day after day. I wake up, i eat, I go to school, and I sleep. I mean I feel as though my life has no meaning and everything I want seems unobtainable I mean life just seems to be taking control of me instead of me taking control of it. I feel as though I am living my life through societey trying my hardest to do what I know is expected and not daring to go against the grain and really go for what I want. I can't believe it..but I'm scared of society. I can not believe I am saying that sacred of society?

Hmm.. mood status...unknown, do you ever just stop to think and you honestly don't know how yu feel. Sometimes I just feel numb, not knowing how I feel, what I'm thinking, or what to do next. I just find when I stop to breathe I'm not even sure how to take my next breath. It's like I have to keep going at full tilt without even thinking or everything will come crashing down.

It is simply amazing how people have the ability to use their "friends" whenever it is convienient for them. Whenever they're lonely, in a new place, have no one else to talk to, no one else to spend time with, etc..yet when the reverse is true they are nowhere to be found, have no time to talk, no time to listen, no time to write, no time to call, no time to care. Remember who your true friends are and don't fall for your fake friend's charm!!